I was in the exact same boat at 19. Did well in high school, did well for a couple of semesters at community college and then it fell apart with grades and everything. Of course my parents expected certain grades as a condition of me living there and them paying for part of the schooling. They wanted me to pay them back when I got all D's and F's. I had A's and B's before that. This was 1983 and no way could I pay them back 500 bucks. I found out a couple of buddies were packing up and moving to Oklahoma to work construction and I impulsively last minute packed up and went with them. In my case it was depression and pot and alcohol that were the problem. Mainly depression but that word was never even mentioned and it never once popped into my head. I just figured I had somehow turned into a big loser. I ended up making it as a plumber. I have always regretted not getting the degree I wanted because I truly wanted it for myself. Even since I was a little kid. It was like what the hell happened????
Do you know why your grades have suffered? It is important to analyze that. Is college something you really want for yourself taking your parents expectations out of the equation? It's not something you have to want but maybe you do. It's up to you, it's your life.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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