Hey bronzeowl, sorry it's going rough for you. Your pdoc doesn't sound very helpful. Is there any way you could discuss this with them again? Maybe it is time to look for someone else? I know this can be a tough decision and starting all over with someone new can be a difficult step.

As for binding, could your binder be too tight? It should stretch a little when you wear it more frequently. I know this sounds weird, but I almost feel comfortable in mine. Protected and held somehow, not crushed. I'm a small/skinny guy though.

Would you be able to discuss with your family why they use your chosen name but not the correct pronouns? It's understandable it's difficult for them, but they have to understand how difficult it is for you too.