I still have small bouts of what I call 'Amy Winehouse' moments when I have a constant intake to function. I have learned these are caused by mixed episodes that are at times horrific to manage. They only last 2-3 days then I am baffled by my behaviour. I can go up to 2 bottles of wine a day. When mood stable, I am completely disinterested in alcohol, if on a soft high or on a low, in fact I feel repulsed. It is when I am heading for mania or having a mixed episode I am at risk. I was assessed for an addiction problem and it was concluded no addiction issues but an undiagnosed mood disorder. Having said that I know I am at risk of a comorbidity, tell my psychiatrist everything I have and with medication adjustment short term, it helps out a lot. I know it is playing with fire and want it fully under control.