first off, I'm so sorry that happened to you. it's awful and a terrifying thing to happen to a child.

i wonder if you could start off by emailing a potential woman therapist. if you see a picture of one that looks alright, that can help too. you could do a phone call too to check it is okay.

remember, that was an awful trauma - but it's incredibly rare. it will not happen to you again, and you are safe now. the vast vast vast vast majority of therapists are kind, caring people and very well trained.