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Originally Posted by Rainydaiz
Yes. Completely. My husband is 21 years older than me and I'm terrified of him dying. Not just of old age before me-he has an hour journey on the motorway to work each day which leaves me very anxious. He does everything for me although I have lived on my own and could do everything myself. But the main thing is; he's the only one apart from my t who sees the real me. I'd he utterly lost without him. I'm always saying to him, please don't leave me, don't die. I work on it in therapy cause poor man is under a lot of pressure not to die. I love him so much. I completely empathise with you. Btw the age difference is interesting because an ex boyfriend of mine died of a heart attack (fit and healthy) when he was about 33. Not very helpful I know; but age is no indicator.
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Hi..sorry you feel as intense as I do but it makes me feel less alone so thank you for sharing
I too worry when hubby goes off by himself..like today he has gone to play golf with a friend and the roads are icy...I told him to be careful but the whole time, so far, I have done nothing but worry and his phone is switched off so it adds to the anxiety that something has happened.
I know how you feel when you say you are lost without him...I literally feel as though I am nothing without him...he is such a good person and I live in fear that one day he will really see what I am and leave me.
This too would result in my demise. Although I am afraid he will see me for who I really am, I also acknowledge he knows me better than anyone and in that helps me feel some acceptance but then at the same time I don't feel he knows me enough as he would want to leave if he really knew more about me
I have said this to him before and he said he knows me and who I am and still loves me and wants to be with me
There is no greater feeling than when I let myself feel his acceptance. But then those thoughts come in 'he would leave if he REALLY knew me'...
Anyway....thank you