Second day in a row of feeling more depressed, and I don't know why. I hope this is only a temporary dip. Just don't really feel like participating in life. Have lost the enthusiasm/motivation that I've had over the past couple of months. Wake up in the morning and just don't look forward to the day or feel like combatting the depression. Have lost the feeling that if I start volunteering or working things will improve for me. What the hell has happened to me?

It makes me mad that this has happened to me. I deserve to feel better than this. I deserve a better life. Thank God I have my husband, or things would really suck. I need to be grateful for what's RIGHT in my life instead of bemoaning what's bad. Ugh . . .