Whats so good about Christmas or New Years for that matter?It signals another year of misery approaching. My family insist i come to join them for Christmas.But why? I feel 10 times worse after i go than before i went.I've tried tp explain it to them.But no one can understand it. I go and everyone is laughing abd having a wonderful time it seems...but i just sit in a corner and watch the happy beautiful people that have never suffered a traumatic injury or seen the things i have. Sometimes i wonder why i stay alive?