I kinda know / can see the pattern ... I have done this before too.

go out have a few drinks with friends (which makes me feel better / happier), maybe have something else fun as well if it is going to be a semi-big night, get home have a bit more wine and if i have something sleep-y on hand maybe i will take that too (as Juliana mentioned).

Bingo, I am think I am writing something completely sensible and I'm NOT, they are more like loopy self-indulgent rambles ... or I start coming down and getting emotional (even worse emails - self-indulgent and pathetic).

Sigh. It only happens when I am ... not very happy (d-word) and it's been almost weekly that I have done that sort of thing (not always emails, but the going out).

I don't drink during the week at all (unless it is a wine over dinner with a friend) and I don't actually drink a LOT - friday I think I had about three glasses of wine all up. Oh plus ONE cocktail at work cocktail party, I was going to drink more but decided to stop drinking and drive home instead.

Hmmmm so really it's more a case of no laptop after imbibing - heh.

Thanks for the responses, I still feel stupid but - maybe a little less so.

a little ...