I am currently 25 years old and I have severe depression. When I was born I had a tumor on my spine. The nerves were wrapped around it so surgery was risky but it had to be done. The nerve damage from the surgery caused me to have a colostomy and I have to self cath myself. The medical conditions alone makes life a struggle but the depression/anxiety makes it worse. The depression is getting worse and the medications don't help. When I am like this it's like my thoughts are clouded and it's hard to concentrate. My anxiety is so bad that my entire body shakes. The more I try to win the battle the worse it gets. I've recently lost my job and now I feel like I'm at a dead end. I don't feel like I'm cut out to live in this hectic world. Everything at this point just feels overwhelming and I don't know how much more emotional pain I can handle. I've never been in a relationship so the only support I have is family. I just don't know what to expect of my future. When I think about the future I see nothing good coming from it.