They both suck. When I'm depressed I don't want to be around anyone including my kids and wife. When I'm hypo manic I hurt my wife by doing things I never thought I'd do (cheat). I can say both suck for the people around me and I have temporarily lost my family over this sh**. I'm finally getting help and I hope I can see clearer. I also am a big hypochondriac so the lamictal my pdoc has me on is freaking me out. I think every pimple or bump or itch is the dreaded lamictal rash and I debate quitting. I pray I can get through this