Well as I sat here and tried to explain the seriousness of my recent PTSD episode and severe depression I came to the conclusion that it was tweeked by the loss of important people in my life lately.
My Grandma (foster) died in August 07 and a short several weeks after I lost my Mom (foster)----- the most important person in my life. Mind you she is not my biological mom -took me in in my late teens -- but my mom no less. she saved my life i was in a living hell and she brought me out. I have several siblings (foster) who are also there for me and wonderful and of course dad (foster)
@ months after the daeth of Nana and MOM I lost one of my clients -- They say you cannot have favorites but - he truly was one of my favorites. He developed alzhemiers young due to his having Down's Syndrom. I miss him dearly, I try to remember how much he has given to me.
Loss of mom is probably the most horrific loss for me -- She was quite sick and I thought I was ready when i said goodbye but I guess not considering the state I've been in the last few weeks.
I wish my mom could have been with me longer --- i am so much a diffrent person due to her unending love and support and now she is gone - I want her back.