Ok. I have been on medical leave since October 10. It's taken this long to get my stability back. I haven't really been in contact with any of my coworkers. Maybe once a month I've talked to my social worker coworker. But I'm scheduled to go back on January 5th. And I'm getting scared. I was totally excited for awhile but now that it's coming up I'm scared.

Last night I had a "screaming dream" - a recurring dream I have during times of great stress that involves me. Being extreme violent and screaming my head off usually while beating the crap out of someone. This time it was a stranger. Anyway in the beginning of the dream I was back at work and everything was going ok but I was having trouble bc I couldn't remember anything. That's exactly what I'm afraid of.

I can't remember anything. Not my facilitator's name, not my students' names, not my schedule, nothing. And I'm embarrassed to ask. I feel like I should know. But I can't help it.

Who has returned to work after a long medical leave? How did it go for you? Did you go back full time right away like I am?