I know how you feel. I loved my cat and my friends more than life. My best friend died 7 years before my cat died and that's when things slowly began to unravel for me. After my cat passed I just totally fell apart. She was with me for 21 years, all my adult life at that time. I didn't know how to cope without her because she was just my constant, my touchstone. Oh well, that was 15 years ago. I have to concentrate on the present and what I can do today. Sorry to be so depressing.