I myself have completely given up on finding and holding a job, although I will be completely broke and desperate during the upcoming year. Menial jobs are not good for self esteem, and continuing education is not in the cards without stable job to pay for it. Part time work through a temp agency doesn't look good for me as I desperately need health insurance.

My opinion of myself is this. A guy in mid 40's needing back surgery and fighting bipolar, is useless to society, and in fact I told my therapist that very exact statement last week. I have become a useless pos and cannot figure out to push forward.