Thanks for your quick responses. I know I'm partly to blame for feeling disconnected from my family. I just hated feeling like I had to make excuses or do things on my own so much. He has said to me that he felt at home with my family (after we broke up) and I know he's thought of my little sister (now 17) like she was his own. I just felt like I was always trying to keep everyone happy...him and my immediate family. He has also stated that he hated that he can't socialize like he wants to. When we broke up a couple of months ago, things were turning around for him and he's doing much better. However, I was starting to feel the strain of everything (combined with long distance) and couldn't cope. I'm trying to be understanding of his behavior and I'm so proud of the positive changes he's made. However, part of me is angry that this comes now after I reached a breaking point. I don't know how to move forward with or without him right now- I just feel like a failure for not being able to keep it together. (We were together 10 years and knew each other 12 years)