Thanks all.
Sadly, the nap didn't help. I tried a crisis chat again (despite my better judgement) and she was all about thinking positive and doing affirmations because "if you just change the way you think, it will get better"... if I could manage that, I'd be fine...
I'm not sure when I'll get a new t. I'm pretty sure it won't happen till after next week. The agency is only open 2.5 days this coming week, then the new therapists start their internships, so sometime after they get settled in I guess...
hoping to keep faking it through the week. There's an art class at the end of the week I want to go to. I can't always smile through it, but I always get something out of it...
maybe I can sleep till then, or something...
I hate when it gets this bad and nothing works to lift it. Then I turn into "negative Nelly" and everyone gets mad. I tried texting a friend and she made me feel like such **** about existing. I know she didn't mean to, but... is not hard for me to feel like crap right now. I would tell my wife how I feel, but she gets so frustrated when she can't bring me out of it. I'd rather not deal with her thinking I'm a worthless lump also.
I'm sorry I'm such a drag... I don't mean to be.