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Originally Posted by DrSkipper
It's very irresponsible to blame others for your lack of sex. If you want to pursue girls, then do so and don't expect others to know which side of the field you're playing on, especially when you state you're bisexual. There are plenty of bisexuals who predominantly favor one gender over the other, and it sounds like you favor females over males. Being bisexual can be very confusing for others to understand, so it is YOUR responsibility to make yourself very clear about what it is that you want out of love and sex.
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No not what I'm going for at all. I posted this a long time ago. I'm bisexual, I'm not confused anymore. I am more attracted to women than men. I'm trans and I'm not changing my body. I don't pursue guys. I pursue girls, when I do. I guess I don't do it right no matter how I've done it. I've done it differently, but it always ends in some unsatisfying result no matter how blunt, teasing, obvious, or subtle, how annoying how on point, or how inviting or uninviting I can be. It doesn't work.
It's gotten so bad, I've lost almost 90 lbs and consistently starving myself since june. I am purposely starving and purging, and yeah I get more attention from my looks, but I tend to feel like nothing works. I am happier I have control of destroying my body to oblivion. It's no one's fault except mine, but I haven't found what I am doing wrong. So what I do now, is ignore, because when I am nice and talking to someone. I'm shut down, and I tell them off or be respectful both don't work. I am just being myself like I am always people don't like me as myself and that's ok, but it sucks so much because it's like your existence is a bane in everyone's eyesores.
I don't know.
Maybe I should just blow my own head off for being a selfish ****, I don't have much. I work my *** off and have no money, regardless. I'm working till I die, and it wasn't my choice and I'm constantly fighting to drag myself out of this hole. I have a neurological condition that can shut down my nervous system at a moments notice and I can be temporarily paralyzed for an extended period at a time. I was born like that. I have all these problems still fight my *** off. It's not their fault they don't like me.
I can't help it.. Maybe living a life without any friends everyone ditches you, because it's just how it is I can't afford food anyways. So it's not that often I get to eat.
I'm not good enough for ****. That's how these comments make me feel, even though that may not be what you are going for at all.
Nothing I do good gets noticed and when I'm dead I don't care. I don't even need these male parts on me. I wish I was a woman from the get go. I wish I had a better support system than being in the poverty line from the get go. I force myself out so much, and constantly get shot back down.
I guess I'm the hater that can't get life done, that's not how I think, but other's treat me like that. This isn't my biggest concern. I'm afraid of being alone when I die. So it's whatever. **** me