Most of my day was good. But for the past 2 hours ive just been hyperventilating about how fat ive become. I wish i never started regulating my eating. I hate it hate it HATE how it makes me look. I cant live inside this skin. Its not me. Its something horrible and painful- a filthy infested mucky shell thats trapping me inside and i cant BEAR TO LIVE HERE I NEED TO GET OUT