Lately, I've been thinking about quitting therapy. I'm just not going any where with it. Everyone thinks I'm doing good right now, but it's all a lie. Even my T has stopped scheduling ahead and is starting to push me away, as she thinks I'm doing great. The problem is, I'm not. Because of Hanukkah and the holidays, everything seems to be going well. I'm actually in a really really bad place, and while I'm a little scared, I like the fact that this time no body really knows how bad off I am. It's not like they can't fix me anyway...