Hello, I am a 28 year old male.
I have an anxious preoccupied attachment style..

Most likely.

Its always hard to know which came first the chicken or the egg.

I also think I have low self esteem and am insecure + low self worth.

However all the research I have looked into talks about people who don't like who they are.

The thing is. I like who I am.

Is it possible to like who you are, know you are worth a lot, but still FEEL low self esteem and low worth.

I know I am very attractive, smart, driven, wise, great in bed. In know this. But when I get into a relationship or my self worth is challenged it feels like there is no foundation of self esteem.

Word for word its anxious preoccupied.

I have this emotional hunger. which is endless. for reassurance in a relationship. However I know that its not just because of the relationship. This is a part of me. not of a part of the person I am dating. Its frustrating.

I almost always feel I am in a constant state of anxiety as I don't feel content unless my partner is routinely giving me reassurance. Which destroys relationships because I am not self soothing i am using another person as a sort of "drug" to make myself feel worth.

So most recently I have been acting as a secure person would.

and trying to self sooth but it all ends in me feeling anxious all the time and questing my worth

anyone with any ideas I'm open...

im gonna go eat and sleep now.

Me and my sexy self. (saying it but not feeling it.)