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You sound like you could use a hug too. Lots of us have felt the way you do, and still feel that way too. One of the things I have struggled with for years and years is that I don't even feel like I deserve to exist. But you do exist, and you were placed here for a reason. You have a lot of struggles right now, but you are a sensitive person, who cares about how others feel too. It probably feels to you as if what you need from others is too much and might be too hard for them, and that gets in your way from being able to let them help you. But, they wouldn't be trying to help you if they didn't want to, and care about you, and see in you someone who is worth helping, and who deserves not only to exist, but to be whole.


<font color=orange>"If a light beckons to you, follow it. If it leads you into the quagmire, you'll probably find your way out of it again; but if you don't follow it, you'll be plagued for the rest of your life by the thought that perhaps it was your star." Friedrich Hebbet</font color=orange>