I did a few weeks ago. First time in three years of therapy. Got really badly triggered and was overwhelmed by the urge to leave. T asked me to stay and do some grounding, but i couldn't speak or think and my entire body was saying "run!" so i did.

He emailed me later that day to say he was sorry the session had been so difficult for me, which was really nice of him.

It had been a tough session, but i still don't know what it was that triggered me like that. I've been dissociated, wept like my heart was breaking, argued with T, and had some horrific flashback-filled sessions, but haven't left any of them early like that, so at a bit of a loss as to what it was that made me run. T was at a loss, too.

As these things tend to do in therapy, it'll probably come up again at some point. Hopefully i won't run next time. Or maybe i'll still need to, but be able to work out why. It's the not knowing that bugs me.