I carry a lot of fear, too. Mine of living beyond my ability to take care of myself, whether psychically or financially. When I let my mind wonder into the "what if" thoughts, I become miserable and sometimes spend too much money trying to cover up the feelings of fear.
Fear has been with me since I was born probably. I do everything out of fear. I know it's not a good way to live, but I haven't found a good way out yet. I hope that we have the chance to get past the fear but I'm not sure of the way.
A friend and I were talking yesterday and she told me about a sermon at church about fear. She said that the Bible has "do not fear" in it 365 times. Do you have faith? I do but fear still reigns. I haven't looked it up yet to see if it really does say that 365 times, but it probably is. The only way I get out of my fear is to do breathing mediation and it keeps me centered for a while or getting caught up in a craft I love doing.
I'm sorry if I'm rambling, but I hope we find a way to get out of the worrying habit. I think it puts too much stress on our bodies and makes us crazy.
Good luck.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha
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