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The movie - The Girl He Met Online -

The female main character who is bi-polar is also a psychopath but they don't describe that in the summary so people might be misled as to what bi-polar people are capable of.

This is just a rant, so no one has to try to make me feel better about it. It is up to each of us as individuals to be the best person we can be. To demonstrate that every person - whether they have a disorder or not is just that, a person.

Bah, idk what I am saying right now. I am 50, I have never vandalized anything in my life (although I have thrown things sometimes, or alone in my car, banged on the steering wheel) but not like what they portray.

And also, I have obsessed about men, and wooed over them, and wanted them to love me - but I haven't been dangerous. Just overly infatuated with the idea that I had to get them to love me through my being perfect, in looks and always acting or saying things they wanted to hear - although that might have been part of being borderline personality disorder 0 I'm not sure. One Dr said I had that, although she also said she couldnt treat bi-polar and so sometimes I think maybe she just needed to tack on something she could work on, no other dr has ever said I was borderline, and I don't cut, and wasn't abused.

But my opinion is, bi-polar just takes what you are, and enhances the experience. We become what we are times 6. IDk, I am just upset that people would watch that and think bi-polars are dangerous. I don't even like to kill bugs, and I am so self- critical, that I would never hurt others. I always want to help other people be the most they can be. Even my ex husbands (I married 2 guys on impulse moments) - even they say they were better off because of what I helped them to achieve during the marriages, and one still wants to be married to me, even though that will never happen again. I married my current husband because I wanted to. (The first time I married, I was in Vegas at 25 and didn't want to watch the Simpsons with my live in boyfriend, so I said,hey I will marry you tonight if it gets me out of the Simpsons - half joking, but he had me down to city hall before I could think, I knew it wasn't love, but I thought friendship was enough - (its not) and the second time I was taking care of my best friend who died's family, and I thought it was my obligation to care for them because of a mixed up sense of duty - so bang, city hall again. Both men just kept bugging me for months about marrying them. But you cant make your heart care for someone, the heart chooses.

So finally, in my 40's when I met a man who I loved - actual love - who loved me back, we married and it is very good.

I wasn't medicated during those extreme times, so don't worry if you are working with a professional support staff that you can't make decisions on your own. Listen to people, and try to avoid impulses, and don't live in Vegas.

But even though I made mistakes, huge errors - I am not psychotic like they portray bi-polars in this movie.

WE are not psychotic. WE are not dangerous and unfeeling. WE would absolutely respond if our parent was having a heart attack. This girl may also be bi-polar, they refer to mood swings. But her dangerousness comes from a whole other problem.

I wonder if all psychopaths are dangerous, or if there are some psychopaths who get mad at all the serial killers, or the portrayal of what a psychopath is capable of, or if all psychopaths are dangerous? I guess I have a distorted view of them. Maybe I am doing the same thing wrong that the movie is doing - believing a stereo type. Hmmmmm, idk.

I just know being bi-polar does NOT mean we are dangerous AT ALL.

have a happy day everyone, <3 Psych Central because of the group dynamic here in forums.

If you think this letter is exposing my craziness to much, personal letter me and I will delete it. I am having a bit of trouble knowing what is acceptable today, and what is maybe over the top.