I've left a few times, I think. One I'm sure of: I left because I got so extremely angry at myself for feeling what I was feeling and decided that if I sat in that room with my therapist for one more second I was bound to burst into tears. The first time however, I was dissociating and suddenly became truly afraid that my therapist was going to hurt me if I stayed. I engender feeling that though she was sitting in Herr chair across from me, she kept getting closer. I felt as though her presence was suffocating and I started to have bad body memories. Often my therapist says that I can leave and come back in in moments when it feels hard to be present there, but it's hard to accept that that's okay to do.