Well last week was a rough week and not because of Christmas. I found out some facts that really rocked my world. I am happy to know the truth but this has set so many feelings into orbit. As I told my therapist I feel like I am walking through a redwood forest just wandering around and having no clue how to get out. My therapist has stated that I will get through this one step at a time I am not alone in this. The facts involve someone else (that I care for very much) the details are not something I want to get into.

Because of my new medication last month I believe that has kept me somewhat balanced. I am not sure I would have fair out very well before it I am almost positive I would have not so I am thankful for that. Everything seems so fragmented it would be so nice just to get a bit of this under control so I could start to deal with this. This is so big I know it can not happen overnight but would like to able to sort a little out so I can see and/or feel some hope. Thanks everyone for listening.