I'm filled with dread over the whole thing. I might just go on a soul searching solo mission . I don't think I can kick it with my hard partying friends and risk my already shakey stability. I know they are going to be upset with me, as I'm usually the life of the party, but dammit, I need to start making decisions for me.
I totally get what you mean about the next day too. I feel like, after partying I wake up and tip toe around waiting for my brain to wake up. And who knows which version it is...
Good luck!