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Originally Posted by CosmicRose
I remember just thinking about social norms in class one day in the 5th grade. I literally sat in my chair imagining what it would be like if I just suddenly started dancing or running around the room acting totally bonkers, just out of no where. LOL I guess I was imaging social boundaries and how easy they are to break? I don't know. But now I have this actual fear of losing it in front of other people. It's never happened before and I doubt it ever will, but its just an unrealistic fear I have of suddenly doing something "out of the norm" and being embarrassed about it.
What is this?? This isn't some kind of ocd or tourettes thinking or anything, I only have anxiety issues sometimes but that's it. It's not often either, once in a blue moon, but sometimes I'll have a thought like that and then I get a slight uncomfortable feeling like wow I hope I never actually do that.
Maybe its a feeling of being out of control that I don't like?
I was just wondering if anyone else out there has these thoughts/feelings.
Social expectations just seem so formal and its like we're stuck in this box of how we're all supposed to act. You can't just break out into song at work or something LOL. I can't really explain it, IDK .  |
Now that you mention it - I remember having thoughts like this before. It's been a rare occurrence but I do recall situations where I was in the presence of a large group of people and I would just daydream/wonder what would happen if I stood before them and said something that was regarded as taboo and socially offensive. I would just think about what their reactions might be like - out of curiosity. I should note here that I did not actually harbor offensive thoughts/beliefs as if they were my own, I just wanted to explore in my mind how people might react to such a set of circumstances. In terms of the settings where this happened - I'm thinking of when I was a kid and made to attend church, and more recently, at a company/corporate meeting when I was bored and my mind was wandering.
Maybe chalk this up to a natural curiosity to explore social boundaries and psychological responses/reactions to certain interactions/contexts/circumstances...
The thought of your hypothetical example though would freak me out because I'm a terrible dancer! My singing probably isn't much better either...
