I've been extremely depressed. I have major depression and I'm at one of my all time lows I've ever experienced. Last Thursday, my parents forced me to go to the psych hospital last thursday because I accidently ran into the wall and that "proved" for that night I was "f***ed up". The real thing is, my dad had a christmas present and told me to take it to my room and he said it was light. So I grabbed it and it was way heavier than I thought. I've had bad shoulder pain for 5 months now and my the pain got to bad in the 5 seconds I was holding it, and my arm gave out on me and I was trying to hurry up and grab it, despite the pain, because it was breakable and I didn't want it to fall and so my leg caught the living room table and I fell into wall. So because they said I was "F****ed up constantly" and how I "Need to stop doing all those drugs", they forced me to go to the hospital and if it wasn't for my boyfriend, I would have been there until today. But when I ask my parents what drugs I'm on, of course, they yell at me.
I haven't lived at home since I was 17. They have no idea how I am when I get like this because they've never seen me this depressed because I have to hide it from them or you get *****ed out for that. There is no support or understanding in my house. So instead, according to them, I'm always "f****ed up on those heavy drugs".

There's nothing I can say. All I can say is my medicine hasn't changed. Nothing added. Nothing. But nothing I says matters.

They don't think depression is as debilitating as it is, so I'm lazy on top of being on drugs.

Even on max ssi, I can't afford to move out of this house. There's only one person in this city I would trust living with but she doesn't want to move out and I'm not going to beg her just for my sanity.
I can't afford to move out of this city until I get work it out where I can move next fall and live in a dorm and that's only if I can work it out perfectly.

But just. Constantly feeling like no one believes you and thinks you're just another junkie, it just makes everything worse.