I mentioned in my previous thread that I thought I had the after Christmas blues (plus feeling very suicidal all of a sudden) and was also physically sick. Well, 3 days later, I have not improved. I am sleeping for hours a day...this with my ONE year old playing around me. I can't stay awake and I normally do this while I am depressed. I am sleeping about 15-16 hours a day and just laying there for the rest of the majority of the day. I am miserable.
I have also been physically sick. I feel miserable and I have since the day after Christmas. Could this illness be causing severe depression symptoms?
This also has me wondering if I really have Bipolar Disorder. Could it be something physical? How could anyone possibly go from sleeping 0-4 hours per night to sleeping 15-16 hours per day a few times a year? It just seems so unreasonable.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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