I don't feel very courageous today. The fallout from yesterday has been pretty brutal - distress, flashbacks, dissociation. Not helped by mind bending pain.

Feel very small and fragile.

Keep reminding myself it was to be expected. This is not going to be a straightforward process, but it's also not something i have a choice about. Just have to manage it as best i can - and ask for help when i can't.