Hi all.
To start off, Im a female doing a trade. I'm feeling pretty good at the moment. I'm on 4 weeks holiday from work, away with my awesome boyfriend, relaxed, at ease.
Work has become so stressful. The workplace is quiet, with the fear of them closing, I could lose my job.
The house we are renting, the lease is out and the owners are thinking they want us out.
Potentially, we get back from holidays, I'm without a job and house.
Finding a job, would be easy. Fitting in and meeting new people however, not very easy. I've never been confident around new people. Shy some say. I can talk to new people, I just constantly fear I'm going to make an idiot of myself.
Finding a new home, very hard. Finding a house in our budget which suits our needs is very difficult. Both on low wages, and have a lot of stuff.
I can feel myself going down a road I have walked before. It wasn't a good road, but then maybe it was. In school, the pressures to deliver speeches to classes got to me. I stopped attending, stopped trying and failed everything. I dropped out and got the job I'm currently in, 3 years long.
I love my job, I'm good at my job. But due to how quiet we are, 'it's hard to soar like an eagle when you're surrounded by turkey's'. I feel myself gaining bad habits, maybe it's time I moved on, found somewhere new.
But they have been so good to me, treated me like their own.
Chances of me getting this anywhere else, is very unlikely.

I Donno what I want out of this, maybe just somewhere to rant. I don't talk to people about my problems, my boyfriend knows everything about everything, that should be enough, right?