First of all I'd like to thank everyone for their suggestions during my introductory post on getting over obessive infatuation.
Almost 2 weeks after that many things have changed but sadly my feelings haven't subsided yet. According to the suggestion of one member, I even tried to gauge her feelings via facebook and found out that she has kept me on the lower end of the friend zone ( I'm just another, normal casual friend for her). LOL. So I think the more I become optimistic and try to take it to the other level, the more I'll suffer. And I'm afraid that it's already off the limits ( that I am under a mental crisis)
As I mentioned I am also trying to improve my well-being. I am reading motivational books, I am watching motivational and empowering videos, I am learning music, I am exercising but whatever action I do I link them with her. For example, if I learn music I visualize her getting impressed, if I exercise I visualize her admiring my toned body, in short whenever I do this or that I visualize her being impressed and aroused with my achievement. She was in the last 3 consecutive dreams I have had ( Before that I don't remember dreaming her) and last night I dreamt of her ignoring me .
Once in a while I become strong and remind that my happiness, my pleasures and joys are not dependent on her liking me or not. They're not dependent on her answering my message or not. I recently watched videos and read articles on loving oneself. I've cried like a child -- in fact I cry daily and ask the lord to take it over. I have shared this to no one but a friend of mine during Christmas. She told me to stay in the present moment, avoid passive thinking etc. which I think is not a piece of cake.
I know that time heals but I don't want to forsake my goals, the new energy, the resoultions I have for the new year while healing. It's urgent that I heal. So do you guys think that I need to seek a medical advice? Right now the doctors are on a grève ( strike) here so it's difficult to find a psychologist. But if there's other way that I can pull from within to heal myself I am ready. Please let me know.