Ow dear....that's like saying, I am forced to drink poison, but lucky me, I have a doctor who can help me after drinking the poison.

I'm not sure how Insurance works in your country, but, if you are not happy doing it and on top of, it makes you miserable, then my advice to you would be not to do it.

Maybe you should explore more. Maybe talk to insurance customer care about how you can get insurance, maybe they can suggest industries where you can get a job, which will cover insurance.

Maybe try exploring outsourced online counseling, which maybe affordable without insurance.

Everyone needs insurance, but maybe there are better ways to get it than going through hell everyday for it.

Good luck!