She is on meds. She has been to counselling. She has refused couples counselling, but we have attended in the past.

The depression/anxiety leads to health issues (bowels and headaches) that keep her bedridden, or at best, housebound.

She recently has begun moving out of the house again, but she is left with some, almost, agoraphobia and anxiety about being in public.

The ups and downs of this are hard to ride out. Trying to be my best, most understanding version of "me" while working full time, handling kids, home repairs, groceries, meals, and a sick spouse, etc. is pretty challenging. I am not as understanding or as sensitive as she needs.

I come on here to vent sometimes because venting at her doesn't work and venting about her and her illnesses, mental and physical, creates a negative image to me and others that works against the long term goal... For her to come back to her former self, and for us to be close.