I tend to ramble out of a felt necessity. It always seems to happen when I know my therapist wants to discuss something that is terrifying to talk about or something I just would rather skip. She someone's will let it happen, but other times she will bring it to my awareness and ask me what I'm gaining in doing so. I engender one time I started to talk about anything and everything I could think of to use up time. When I hit a point where I had nothing else I could say I started to tear up and was really straining to think of something. My therapist just looked at me with her empathy face and asked me if it would have been less stressful for me to have just said that I was nervous about the topic of today's session. She reminded me that I was on control and if I wasn't ready our wanting to discuss something than we wouldn't. I'm glad she reminds me of this occasionally, it feels nice to know that I have control in this situation where I never have before.
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