I guess I was thinking that taking a break was a softer way to quit if that's what feels right to you, because you wouldn't have to face your therapist about it and/or find out if he would say Good idea. See ya! (thought I doubt it). You sound really depressed though, so finding another therapist might be worthwhile. The right match makes all the difference. I hope you can find your way to some peace with this and stop beating yourself up. You are not a failure at therapy.