thanks guys. direction, it's just how i typed words.
i have come to realise that because i have not had a relationship properly and don't have any friends that i invested every ounce of emotion i had into this man. i don't often hand over my heart. i am pulling back a little and trying not to be as emotionally intense. like i said i don't need daily affirmation and a part of me is relieved that he has given me boundaries as not knowing when i'm stepping over them is very stressful. i will give him my two cents worth for not giving me fairer warning though and will keep trying. i am just discovering about the amount of work that can go into a relationship. crap! i had no idea!
anyway, i think it's too soon to throw in the towel just yet. like i said before he has qualities i've been looking for in a friend (male and female) for my whole life. not kidding!!!! i can't turn my back on that can i!
i've never had many friends. i can make them easily enough, but i can't seem to find people who have staying power. that is why i am here. you guys are a life saver!
so i'm off to see my horse today and maybe see a movie and i'll be working most the week as well. i will pull through, it'll be tough i know, but like i said, i'm a fighter.
again, thanks guys. i really really appreciate your words. big hugs and kisses.