Steiner of Thule, I completely understand your situation. Growing up I had problems socializing because I was different than everyone else. After struggling through middle school and getting diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder, I was constantly hiding away. The outside world offered nothing to me but blacktops and concrete. People didn't exist. For all I cared, back then I could have lived on this planet by myself and be perfectly content.

Livnlrn is right. It takes time. You have to learn to overcome the fears and antagonists playing in your head. Technically you have in many ways. The fact that you are able to come seeking community and keeping an open dialogue takes a lot of courage. Talking about things like this is hard and many people don't understand the hardships of depression, anxiety, etc.

I do though. I'm sure the others posting here experienced it too and I say that I am here for you. I can't speak for everyone but I like to think that we are all here for you, all here for each other. I'm pretty much homeless right now and because I have a little bit of support each day, I can make it through the day. Take it one day at a time and focus on the little victories you have each day rather than the failures you endure overtime. You are not a failure. You are a winner. If you ever need to take, drop a message.