I don't know if I have an eating disorder or not. I regularly binge and purge but not always together. Sometimes I like the feeling of fullness I get when I eat too much and so don't purge. Sometimes I purge without binging because I like the feeling of relief and aliveness it gives me. I'd say I binge about once a day and purge maybe twice. I don't think I'm preoccupied with my weight. Also, I'm overweight. Can I be overweight and have an eating disorder?

I've recently been doing both a lot as I find Christmas quite stressful and I can't self harm in case my family find out. My throat is sore, my knuckles are bleeding and my stomach muscles ache from all the retching. I realize that this is probably doing me more harm than the self harm which my psychiatrist knows about but I am too ashamed to discuss it with him in case he doesn't believe me. Is this an eating disorder? Should I try to discuss it with someone? Would eating disorder services even take me seriously?