I think the insights and points of view stated above could be very helpful to you.

You say you want to be a self realized person, and also imply that what is holding you back from happiness is that you do not fit the mould that you see for yourself.
In order to be self realized, do you not have to see that such a mould or preconceived idea of what you should be is not helpful?
The word should is not helpful.

I can understand your feelings of rejection of things that you do not like or want to be, but don't throw therapy out with these. Use it to explore why you reject these things. It may be that some things you are rejecting because of misperceptions or misunderstandings. Question everything, including therapy, but be wary of black and white thinking.