Pretending not to be gay is not going to help you, whether or not you go to therapy. I’m a lesbian and I was in a 3 year relationship with a man who I lived with. It was the most miserable 3 years of my life. I tried to fit into what I thought was “normal” and I did something that made me so unhappy in the process. If you like guys, nothing is gonna change that. It just is. It’s not good, it’s not bad, it just is what it is. You need to accept it because it isn’t going to change.
Yep, the world is full of assholes. It always was, and always will be. People are assholes about everything, race, sexuality, gender. There are some good people in the world, though, and I really think that things are getting better for the gay community. I don’t consider myself an active member of the “community” either, but I am still using the word community because we are a group of people with similar plights.
As far as work goes, my department head at the hospital I work at is flaming gay and so is another manager. They make pretty good money. I think it depends on the field you work in and how good of a worker you are, but it is definitely possible to do well as a gay person. I agree that sexuality is a huge part of who you are, but at the same time, it doesn’t really affect anyone but you, so don’t let it get in the way of your everyday life.
You said you want to be a self-realized person. The best way to do that is to stop hating yourself for something you can’t change and try to be with people who make you happy – who, as it seems, are people of the same gender.