I'm Bipolar. I don't have a psychiatrist due to very poor management by them in the past. My MD writes my prescriptions for all my psych medications. Lately I have been having episodes of severe anger/negative thoughts(voices)/rage. It last 1-2 weeks then lifts. I am literally telling the negative voices that I am hearing to shut up, in my own mind. The negative voices are in my own voice. I have a history of schizophrenia in my family but have never received this dx. I have had to seclude myself in my bedroom @ home to protect my family from this rage & have for the first time in my life been called out by my supervisor at work for snatching a piece of paper out of one of my co-workers hands. Yes I was raging mad at the time. I never act this way at work and the person I did it to was as shocked as I was. I'm afraid I will lose my job. I'm afraid to tell my Dr. for fear he will recommend a psychiatrist. I'm afraid of adding a new drug to my perfect little cocktail but I have to do something. I've tried to use my anti- anxiety to calm myself down but I don't think its working. Its a new symptom for me and I'm barely keeping the Bipolar under wraps. I don't know what to do.