Hubby just yelled at me for looking sad all week and because I tell him that it's not something he can help me with when he asks. I just told him now that sometimes people are sad, you cannot expect me to walk around grinning like an idiot all the time, I am learning how to allow myself to feel my feelings, and now he's making me feel like I felt as a kid, that I have to deny how I feel even in my own ****ing home. I am worried about my t, she has had a cough for a long time and was finally going to get it checked out, and I am so fearful that she is seriously ill, and feeling also very guilty because of the letter I sent her before christmas telling her of my fears, I should not have bothered her with it, ugh I don't need my husband now telling me to "look happy". **** him. Sorry for the rant. I just had to get it out.