Pegasus...My normal mind agrees with you, I need to go to my MD regardless and I will because you have given me the courage. I just don't want a psych referral. Once they decide you're on the right drug they wont back off even when your telling them you're unable to function on it or that your insurance will not cover it. I paid $400 for a 1 month supply because I couldn't get the Dr. to call me back with a different medication, I'm praying for menopause. gaylegg...I thought it might be hypomania too, I've experienced it before but that would mean my current medication may no longer be working for me because it's been under control for quite awhile. Yikes ozzy1313...I'm a good faker just like you. I've ruined a perfect record. I guess we can only pretend for so long. I really thought I had a handle on this little monster. AlwaysChanging2...I believe you are right. My meds need tweaking but I'm a psych nurse of all things and I know too much for my own good. I actually met my current MD at work and shared my story with him and he agreed to manage my meds but it may be time for a pdoc. Blitter2014...Yes the voices cannot be managed by self will but funny enough they stop just as suddenly as they begin. Bottom line I need to go see my Dr. Do I dare bring up the history of Schizophrenia in my family? I only recently found out. I'm adopted and found out through my birth father via The Children's Home Society that my mother had it. Thanks to everyone for your encouragement & support. I will go for a physical & take it from there.