Aww... I'm sorry that you feel abandoned. I think that we feel what we feel, it doesn't have to be "rational" or have a cause (feelings are like that, unfortunately).

And, I sure wish I knew why therapy is hard. Maybe because anything with multiple humans interacting is hard? Just my theory.

I hope you can go out and have fun with your friends, and maybe talk about how you felt abandoned with your T when you see her on Saturday?