Hello everyone,

I am reposting this in this forum from the introductory forum as someone suggested this could be a good forum to get some help.

My name is Matt and I turned 31 last November. Been wanting to seek help with a number of things related to my mental wellbeing for a LONG time. I sadly do not trust my own doctors to do anything about the problem as they will just refer me to a counselling service and I always find councillors useless. Or they will ignore the problem altogether and pat me on the shoulder!

I have always found it very very hard to put it in writing about what I am going through.
The main issue I have at the moment is a mental disorder that I have suffered for over 10 years now, each time I explain the condition I am met with a 'not heard of that one before response'.

Hard to explain but what happened initially was if I became dirty or I thought I was dirty then I would get an uncomfortable sensation in the region where I thought I was contaminated. For example if someone brushed passed my arm then my arm would hurt or ache because I felt it was dirty. It has then progressed into, if I felt uncomfortable wearing something then my body would feel uncomfortable. If someone were to cough on me then the area of my body would feel uncomfortable. Once I get an onset of this it will cause anxiety and basically I need the loo a lot!
This Christmas I have had a bizarre issue around my waist area and needing a tight grip so to feel secure. My waist area has felt uncomfortable and I just can't shake it off. It has actually ruined a lot of Christmases this disorder as I get so paranoid and anxious about things. Also my brain can ache and hurt at the same time. I find it very difficult making decisions at the best of times and this causes me a lot of stress trying to stay 'sane' and battle this disorder.
There are so many things going off in my head that this mystery disorder and my paranoia and anxiety have exacerbated.
In short if anyone could help or has had a similar experience then please get back to me. There are other issues surrounding OCD, intrusive thoughts, esteem and assertiveness but one step at a time.
Thanks
Matthew.