I am barely above a suicidal depression stage. Due to facial tics, I'm off AP. The only amount of lexapro I can take is 20mg so I don't go manic, and my pdoc said the lamictal really only helps mania. My adderral helps a little on depression, but I was wondering if others feel undermedicated for depression? Mine is much more frequent than mania which is common. Also, my sponsor was on just about the same meds for bipolar, due to tolerance and $$ she couldn't afford for Latuda, and she comitted suicide. It was a wakeup call that I can't take this lightly.