Thanks guys. In HS I was on Paxil, which did help at the time but also made me feel robotic. When I stopped taking it I had a very... uncomfortable time dealing with the withdrawals. It was definitely not a mental addiction but my body was used to it. More than a day without and I would get very weird feelings in my head.

I am scared of that happening again, but I really do need relief of some sort as soon as possible. Right now I've been taking things to knock me out during the day.

Months of trying different things and none of it working is a little scary for me based on how I'm feeling right now. It's a very overwhelming feeling. And now after researching ADHD I find that I have a lot of those symptoms, which is just another worry on my list.