Im sure this is the time to let her go. Want to make a fresh start in 2015. If i dont let her go now, when will I ever? Dont want to let this haunt me till the day i die. Its time to stop whining.

I made a list with triggers, things that make me daydream and think about her again.

1. Watching women on TV who look like her( there are some dutch artists who really look like her for some strange reason.)
2. Watching old high school photos/ searching my old Twitter Tweets from high school
3. Particular songs. (AVOID these songs!!)
4. When someone is yelling at me/mean to me. Then I escape to this daydream. Don't do it! This is gonna be a tough one
5. Wearing dresses/high heels, because I walk around and act like she sees me and thinks; she's so prettty. I can still wear em, but I just don't have to fantasize.
6. Seeing her profile on Facebook. Obviously I don't have to click on it but sometimes it pops up.
7. Hearing her name somewhere on tv/reading it on the computer ( it's a very common dutch name )
8. Speaking to old classmates.
9. Dreaming about her at night. It's a real trigger because it feels so realistic and then I wake up and I'm so sad. I don't think I can just randomly stop dreaming bout her, but if I manage to not think about her all day, i think the dreams will fade away.

I think those are the main triggers. Ofcourse I have all these memories that randomly pop up in my head but i just have to block it. I'm not sure how I will fix it but I have to